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I once was an infant, so calm and sweet
In my loving mother's arms.
She nursed me, bathed me
And wrapped me in a blanket, snug and warm.
I once was a toddler, so innocent and loved
On my loving father's shoulders.
He taught me, carried me, and lead me
As we caught fish from our canoe.
I grew to be her princess, so mystified and shy
In my loving family's home.
Sister brushed my hair and dressed me
In all her favorite dresses, and we were princesses.
I grew to be his admirer, so awed and intrigued
In my loving family's home.
Brother gave me remotes and video games
To play for hours, sometimes to our heart's content.
I grew to watch my siblings, so saddened and confused
In my aging family's home.
Sister didn't play with me, she had other friends
And boys she liked, boys that liked her back.
I grew to watch my siblings, so heartbroken and afraid
In my aging family's home.
Brother shut me out, in his room he stayed alone
To mourn his broken heart, while mine was breaking too.
I grew to meet the other kids, so excited and abound
In my cheerful neighborhood.
They played together, they seemed so happy
I wanted to play as well, to laugh with joy like them.
I grew to meet the other kids, so afraid and confused
In their exclusive neighborhood.
They threw things at me, called me names and laughed at me
As I could only run away, wondering what was wrong.
I grew to be an outcast, so confused and lost
In my cold world.
I lost myself in sadness, as I lay at night
Wondering, what exactly was it? What was wrong...with me?
I grew to be their by-stander, so empty and cold.
In my quiet family's home.
No one ate together, they were all so busy
Working all the time, going off with friends.
I grew to be their weirdo, so ashamed and nervous
In my crowded family's home.
Relatives came over, to them I'd try to talk
Only to be mocked and shut down, for love-lives are more important.
I grew to be their hermit, so alone and still ashamed
In my peaceful bedroom.
Laughing and talking loudly, I hear them from my room
As they converse below me, I wish that I could too.
I grew to be their lesbian, so quiet and self-kept
In my whispering family's home.
They wondered about me, why I didn't speak of boys
Because simply I didn't, though I had one in mind.
I grew to be his stalker, so creepy and so weird
In my chattering school.
He said that I was making moves, fantasizing,
Trying to “get in his pants”, though all I'd done was be his friend.
I grew to be their “druggie”, so pained and agonized
In their ignorant community.
My eyes became my enemy, as the lights and pain came in,
Then took away everything I cared about; my grades, my talents, respect...
I grew to be their burden, so depressed and low
In my fearful home.
Mother tried to help me, she tried to understand
Her princess who lay in bed, unable to open her eyes.
I grew to be their “vampire”, so sensitive and unhealthy
In my worried home.
The sunlight gave me migraines, so I had to wait
Until the evening came to start my day.
I grew to be their problem, so indifferent and carefree
In my stormy home.
Father was frustrated, he had to pay the bills
So he yelled at me for “not trying” and for being weak.
I grew to be an idiot, so gullible and flattered
In my best friend's mind.
He knew my body was weak and frail,
So he said he loved me, and invited me to his house.
I grew to be his “option”, so oblivious and trusting
In his dirty home.
He wanted me, I said no, he didn't care, and my body froze
In my fear, then...he got what he wanted.
I grew to be his trash, so used and broken
In my shattered mind.
The blade pierced my flesh, it was a distraction
From the nightmare he'd left behind.
I grew to be a loner, so hopeless and in pain
In my cold but welcoming bed.
My blankets embraced me as I cried to sleep,
Hoping that I'd never wake again.
I grew to be her child, so lonely and afraid
In my saddened mother's eyes.
She pulled the blankets from my covered head, to see my empty eyes
And bandaged the arms of which I cut, and kissed my tear-stained face.
I grew to be his child, so forgotten and left behind
In my saddened father's eyes.
He realized his mistake of judgment, and much to my surprise
He told me he was sorry, and he would make this right.
I grow to be their child, still loved and protected
In my loving home.
Mother holds me in her arms and strokes my hair
And I lean my head on Father's strong shoulder.
I grow to be a child, forever and infinitely
In this cruel world.
I have my love for Mother, Father, and their love for me
And I have my love for Brother, Sister, wherever they may be.
As you may be able to tell, I put a few of my own personal life experiences into this story.
There are terrible things we have to deal with in life. Things we think we may never get past. And even our families may not quite understand...but that's the point, you must go to them. Everyone has someone who loves them. And with them by your side, and the rest of us who have endured our own nightmares, we stand by you too. You are never alone, and together, we can overcome anything.
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I wrote this is no particular style...I just wanted to tell a story and with it a message. So please don't poem nazi me XD I can't poetry ;___;
Also might do a cover art for this, but if someone wants to put theirs in there, feel free to let me know.